Friday, December 23, 2005
my first entry!!! woohoo!! i'm all hyped up after yesterday's events. I thought I should make a blog for anyone to read cause so many things are happening and have happened and I know are gonna happen :) God's touched my life so much especially this year that I just HAVE to tell everyone all He's done. that verse up there's my favourite verse by the way. so anyway it was christmas yesterday and I got diarrhea ( is that how you spell it?) in the morning. vunderful. but yea well the rest of the day was just full of us hurrying about and getting tense which is all quite sad really. well whatever it was God still made a way and we all had a great party with the relatives. I'm real glad everyone enjoyed the games we prepared!! it took us alot of energy to think up all those stuff and i was so glad we had time to play all of em. i would have been real sullen the whole day if we couldn't play just one of them (this is dedicated to ka jenny--), i'm weird like that :) anyway the last game we prepared was this game where everyone had to answer 'if' questions and when me and kajenny (to people who are abit freaked out by this foreign word that's my sis [akka+jennani=kajenny]) were setting the questions i wrote one that went 'if there was one thing that made your day what would it be' and the first thing that came to my mind was my quiet time with God which i do everyday cause it's the only time when I feel i'm really me you know?? cause God knows me best, like noone could ever, and so I just feel totally me. if you know what i mean. and I'm the sort of person who always imagines a situation like me getting that card and how I would answer the question and i'll take like 15mins just phrasing and rephrasing how i'd say it and picturing how it'd go, especially when I plan to talk to someone about God or ask a question about Christianity, but we had to go on writing so i just kinda left it hanging and forgot about it really. and yah you can guess what happened. during the game, guess which card i got. i really just burst out(okay not exactly burst, it was more of a pop:)) laughing when I got the card half wishing i'd phrased it in my mind before this and mostly thinking whao God you really planned it all out yah and knowing exactly what God wanted me to say. so i just said it.cause it was true. there's no other thing in my day that keeps me going like my time with God does. and i realised something yesterday after everyone left, there's no need to find a perfect way to say something cause if it's something God wants me to say I've just got to relax and say it cause God's putting the words in my mouth for sure. wellwell it was a great party and I know that our prayers were answered. I know everyone was touched someway or rather. oh yah another thing. i sent out christmas cards this year and cause I heard wrongly i only put mine my sis and my mom's names on the cards and i was seriously sad when mom said she would never say a thing like that and when pa was real sad and a little mad about it when atthai called to tell him. actually i was super sad cause i knew it was all my fault and i just kept asking God to turn back time so i could add pa's name and being me i kept imagining the scenario and me adding his name but i finally realised that surely there was a reason for it to happen cause i just couldn't imagine any way that i could have added it after 'hearing mom say it'. i don't know, the thought that pa might be hurt or that it was a family to another family just didn't cross my mind AT ALL and these things usually do. so well i just accepted it and found God's comfort and thank God noone even mentioned the cards yesterday and i was just soooo happy and grateful. okay i've written a tad too much now hehe. well all i have to say now is merry christmas! to anyone who's reading this and welcome back kajenny!!! i missed you loads! and it's just been such a blessing just having you around the house again!! love you!!!
Child of God;
6:18 PM
