Saturday, December 30, 2006
wow so much has happened since my last post.. where on earth do i start? well firstly to my dear Sindhuja.. HIIII!!! i bet you're having e time of your life in Texas! I think it still hasn't really sunk in for me that you're gone that i'll probably never see you again. actually.. i'll probably never see most of my close friends again.. i mean we're all gonna be trying so hard to make new ones. well anyway.. let me start off with my Laos trip. you know surprisingly.. i think it was more amazing after it finished. i think probably the best thing i took out of it was just the prayerful attitude of everyone.. and becoming more aware of spiritual attacks..weather sickness or oppression/depression. i mean it was wonderful (sometimes really really tiring) being with the kids but i think just being with God in that land which He loves was even more wonderful. I kept feeling in that country that whatever foreign Gods the people served God still thought the people were beautiful, and they were precious to Him. mommy really found her calling in Laos, to teach.and i think it seriously came at the most appropriate time in her life and i honestly thank God for that. we had devotions in the morning and debrief at night and during both of which we prayed and we even had prayer walks during the day! and i realised i really don't pray enough!!! i mean i have all the freedom in the World to pray.. on the bus while i'm walking all i have to do is talk to God in my heart and surely that is a channel to God that i haven't been using and has gone a bit rusty. lead a prayerful life.. now i get it. talk to God whenever you can and more importantly listen to what He has to tell you. that's gonna be one of my resolutions next year.. to get to know my God better and use this freedom He's given me through His death!! this present of prayer! singing with the church choir was really fun too! and one thing i realised was that being with a community of christians really helped me to stay focussed on God! My baptism was really really interesting.. i mean everyone kept saying i'm so excited for you before i got baptised but honestly i was all that excited about it.. i was more excited about singing in e choir to tell you the truth.. i don't know.. i guess cause i kinda felt like I'd already been baptised, like i'm already a Christian.. this thing was just to let everyone else know.. if you know what i mean.. cause in the days of the New testament.. people got baptised the minute they accepted Christ. But during the actual baptism it was so different.. especially when i took off all those soggy black clothes and put on my fresh white clothes it seriously felt like i was tearing off my old self and becoming new in Christ. i felt finally ready to fight anything that Satan might bring my way with my belt of truth, my helmet of faith and the sword of the Spirit. i felt new nad i thank God so much for using something i thought was useless to change me. thank you God. but isn't that what He always does? He takes prostitutes (Rahab--i think that's her name :)), liars/cheaters (Jacob), blasphemers (Saul) and transforms them and uses them in mighty ways. God is so amazing.. that a holy God would love change and USE imperfection. wow God of all grace and love You're awesome!! well i better continue in another post some other time cause this has gotten quite lengthy and i better leave. toodaloos bloggie!
Child of God;
12:03 AM
Monday, December 18, 2006
hey hey! yea i know it's been a looooooooooooong time since i last blogged. and i have so much to say! where shall i start... youth camp!! i must admit i didn't like it much on the first day cause i didn't know a single person in my group but once we started playing all e weird games it didn't really matter much anymore. the night sessions/sermons were amazing. This guy named Gary (not sure if he's a pastor) spoke two nights and he's hilarious.. it was alot about boy-girl relationships and he really helped me keep it in persepective, to keep it God-centred. one thing that really hit me during his sermons was e fact that i didn't really have a constant mentor i could ask questions to and share problems with at church.. so maybe i should get one hehe. but i think e best parts of e whole camp were just my quiet times with God. God broke alot of bondages during that camp and brought me that one step closer to Him. Thank You so much God. one thing He taught me is that He's always in control.. all He calls us to do when we face a problem is pray and perservere with faith that He'll take away that burden and He did! He spoke to me through Psalm 42 : "Why are you so downcast oh my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God for I will yet praise Him, my Saviour and my God".-- that line especially. i'd been feeling really apart from God for a long time now and God reminded me to continue to have faith and hope in Him and to always be joyful, prayerful, thankful and to always priase God whatever the circumstances. it all ended off with the baptism retreat which was a really good closure for it all. It was basically prayer for the filling of the Holy Spirit in our hearts and as Sarah prayed for me i couldn't help but cry my heart out as His spirit convicted me of God's love. that He could love me despite my many willingly done sins that He remained faithful throughout my unfaithfulness. that He loved my whole being with a constant unconditional love despite my love for Him depending on my mood. This amazing God i will forever praise.
Child of God;
5:25 PM
