Tuesday, March 20, 2007
hiiiiiiii! since everyone is just DYING to read one of my posts i've decided.. to post :D. ohhh i don't know what to say. these past few weeks have been kinda.. surreal. choir has offdicially taken over my life.. i'm still not a fan of leading cell.. my class has expanded so i have to make friends AGAIN..and i'm feeling even MORE inadequate at choir recently. i don't know.. i really have nothing much else to say peeps. i'm just trying to get back on track with God. i feel like i'm starting to set my eyes on other things. God keeps reminding me that i have to run this race for Him, with my eyes fixed on Him. for His glory, and cause it's e best way to live life, completely focused on what He'd want me to do in every situation and just completely dependant on Him cause i'm gonna end up no where relying on my own strength. i really thank God for last week's cell (bible study group) session though. e last time i lead cell i finished in like 15mins and i was running through all e material and just saying out everything i'd written down. and so last week i met up with my cell leaders and Amaria talked about God speaking through me, and i just being His mouthbox. and it felt so so impossible. i felt like i was in no poistion to discern God's voice at that point but i just prayed in faith that i would and He delivered of course :D. i could feel God putting ideas and answers in my head that were not down on my paper and just leading the group into discussion during cell least week. i get it now. it's NOT about me. it's about God, speaking to us and teaching us. it's been hard devoting time to God everyday esp since choir started but i know now that choir is NOT WORTH that. i have to make time for my God, cause in e end, when i'm standing before Him on judgement day neither choir nor school nor results are gonna matter.. it's about whether or not i live my life as an offering to my King. I've actually been quite sad about my O-level results. i guess i didn't expect it. but now i remmber while studying, how much i had to keep my mind off doing it to do well, and keep it on doing my best for my God and leaving e rest to Him. how can i just forget all that now? you know what, God gave me e best results possible i thank Him! cause those results were humbling! during my prelims GOd showed me just how much He was in control of my marks (cause i honestly thought i was gonna get like 20 points) and again He's shown me that. He didn't let any pride seep in, esp when i THOUGHT i was gonna do well. God is so so good. so i've really gotta keep my priorities straight and give God e time He deserves. He didn't die on the cross for nothing. He died to cleanse me of sin and to form a relationship with me and lead me into eternal life. how can i turn away from a God that wants to sit by my side and talk to me and teach me in ways i can't even understand? You gave your life for me so i will live my life for You.
Child of God;
6:41 PM
