Saturday, December 19, 2009
so.. i'm back at long last hehe :) i was lying on my bed just now and kinda frustrated at God. I know He exists and I know all He's done in my life but I wanted to know and I asked him quite shamelessly - why can't you just show yourself? why can't you just be visible so that everyone will see? so that everyone will know who you are and turn to you? so that people wont think i'm completely nuts? :P and I was kinda expecting an answer that went something like - you can't understand the mysteries of God, or who are you to question God and His ways - but instead i felt God shoot me a question in return - who says being able to see something makes it more real? in fact who says being able to feel or smell or hear something makes it more real too? 'Haven't your eyes tricked you more than once Ruby?' He asked me. 'Haven't you thought you saw something that wasn't really there after all? your eyes 'playing tricks' on you as they say. Haven't you smelt or tasted something before and thought it was something else? How reliable are your senses? Can they really prove to you what is real and what is not? In fact, the things that you know for sure, you cannot see or hear or touch or smell - a mother's love, the hope that life will get gradually better, the existence of right and wrong. These things can't be measured or logically reasoned but for some reason you know them to be more true than most things.
I was pretty blown away by the things God was challenging me with but how true they are! And
so I can truly say more than anything else in the world I KNOW the presence and love of my mighty God. I'm not imagining it even if science tries to tell me I am - I know it with every morsel in my body with every inch of my spirit and every bit of my soul - if not anything else in the world - I know this to be true - Jesus loves me.
Child of God;
6:27 AM
