Friday, July 30, 2010
wow, I can't believe the last time I blogged was in... January!! I'm really not great at this blogging thing! And this is the first sign that I've been in australia too long - I want to ask you how you're doing. haha! and I don't even know if anyone even reads this thing. Both here and in the US every where you go every person you meet wants to know 'how you're going'. At first it was quite touching - but then got a bit awkward when the cashier seemed to want a full account of what i'd been up to that day and what I had planned for the weekend. Maybe it's just me and my asian upbringing but I wasn't quite prepared to stand there and share my life happenings with a complete stranger. But I've been recently coming to learn that usually when people ask me 'how are you doing?' and 'what will you be up to' they are expecting simple answers like 'good!' and 'not much!' - not the detailed descriptions that i've been providing - i'm sure i've freaked many a cashier out by now! oh well.. they were asking for it!
Child of God;
6:57 PM
Saturday, December 19, 2009
so.. i'm back at long last hehe :) i was lying on my bed just now and kinda frustrated at God. I know He exists and I know all He's done in my life but I wanted to know and I asked him quite shamelessly - why can't you just show yourself? why can't you just be visible so that everyone will see? so that everyone will know who you are and turn to you? so that people wont think i'm completely nuts? :P and I was kinda expecting an answer that went something like - you can't understand the mysteries of God, or who are you to question God and His ways - but instead i felt God shoot me a question in return - who says being able to see something makes it more real? in fact who says being able to feel or smell or hear something makes it more real too? 'Haven't your eyes tricked you more than once Ruby?' He asked me. 'Haven't you thought you saw something that wasn't really there after all? your eyes 'playing tricks' on you as they say. Haven't you smelt or tasted something before and thought it was something else? How reliable are your senses? Can they really prove to you what is real and what is not? In fact, the things that you know for sure, you cannot see or hear or touch or smell - a mother's love, the hope that life will get gradually better, the existence of right and wrong. These things can't be measured or logically reasoned but for some reason you know them to be more true than most things.
Child of God;
6:27 AM
Saturday, November 21, 2009
What hurts the most
Child of God;
7:21 PM
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Another thing I’ve learnt from mum is to GET MY PRIORITIES RIGHT! I think the biggest thing that’s left an impact on me is the fact that my mom took time off work for me when I was a baby!!!! Yes I was screaming and crying and wouldn’t let go of her leg while she tried to leave the house!! But instead of pushing me off she decided to take another...(oh no I can’t rmb!!!) few months off work just to take care of me and keep nursing me and oh psychologists today would tell you she did the right thing!! But most of all I treasure that story because however many things my mom had to do, whatever plans she had before her, however many months of leave she’d already taken up till then, she chose to take care of her family first, career second. Soon enough she’d come to find that this stubborn baby turned into an even more stubborn two-year-old with even more tantrums and tears, and her tactics would definitely change!! :P but that story of her laying aside her job to give me some extra lovin, I will always keep dear to my hearttt!!! And I am glad to say that HOWEVER many positions my mom’s been offered throughout her career, and however manny opportunities she’s taken hold of to advance her career, my mom has never ever become a workaholic!!!!! Woohooo!! I never thought of how hard this must’ve been for mum! 1) just the fact that she is brilliant at what she does, in fact, at WHATEVER she does- and how tempting the praise and the potential pay-rises would’ve have been were she to spend long nights at the office! 2) living in Singapore –the kiasu nation- and having workmates who are out to compete and win , who have crazy expectations of themselves -it’s shocking that i don’t remember my mom ever getting influenced by them! No mum is always ready to come home, even if coming home means she has to do a million and one more things like cooking dinner and putting the clothes for laundry, clearing the dining table (yet again!), calling and finding out where everyone is... I remember I’d always call mum around 5/6 (even today!! :P) wondering when she would be back and counting down the hours (maybe fill it up with a little tv?) till she did! But I could always be sure I would hear the distinct jungle of mum’s keys soon enough! (unless of course she was having one of her ladies’ nights we were never invited to!! :P) mum’s always had her priorities right when it came to her job too. It never became about the money it was always about the passion and about God’s voice. Her priority has always been to impact young lives through the skills and love that God’s given her and that is always her aim! She’s had so many many children, not just students! She is always checking with God that she’s on the right track and letting Him rule her life and guide her, even if it’s not the way she woulda planned it, cause she knows only her Father knows her way, the perfect future for her! And what more wonderful plans He must have for her, how exciting!!! And because of that mum’s given me the freedom to choose MY passion in uni over what may be more certain but also more torturous. She’s left my plans up to God and has never tried to plan my life for me!! Instead she’s lived life in a way that would teach me and help me to make the right decision. She set the example and help me get my priorities straight!!! :)
Child of God;
2:46 PM
Friday, November 06, 2009
Dedicated to my mother on her birthday!!
Child of God;
7:31 PM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
hello! i will officially be back on the 7TH OF DECEMBER!! can't wait to see everyone back home!!!! I MISS YOU ALL SO MUCH I'M SORRY I DON'T KEEP IN CONTACT AS I SHOULD!! PLEASE REMEMBER I STILL LOVE YOU GUYS VERY VERY VERY MUCH!!!! friends having a-levels i can't start to imagine what it's like for u guys right now but i'm praying hard from over here for u guys =) don't compromise your health for your exams alright it's not worth it! will post more soon! =) =) =) =)
Child of God;
5:58 AM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
yes i'm baaaccckk =) it feels good to be back! not that i actually have the time to be back but it's a GREAT form of procrastination if you ask me! my past month has been amazing and i've learnt so much. it's time to buckle down and study from now on unfortunately =( it's still annoying having to do my washing and cleaning and sometimes cooking in the middle of all this but it's stime i get used to it! i mean i'm already getting served dinner here i have no idea what it's gonna be like if i had to come home and cook dinner everyday! it would be horrible =( i mean i'm totally fine if i were a simple housewife (and i'm NOT saying that the job of a housewife is simple! trust me. i've watched ENOUGH operah to know better!) with my main priorities being cooking, cleaning and teaching the kids. aaahh what a good life. i mean i bet if i actually had time to cook i would form a passion for it! maybe even for cleaning the dishes but now it's just an extra chore on tp of everything else. ok enough of my complaining! =) school has been good. i'm really enjoying the stuff i'm learning and the annoying bits in math are finally over and done with! the harder essays are done (with not excellent results but hey.. it's done!) and now it's just about committing more time to my work. sorry to all the singapore kids out there who are slaving over As and therefore probably not even reading this but i love the way things are taught here and i love the stuff i'm studying.. not so excited about uni now but ahh that's 5 months away! i know the year's not over yet and the tough exams are only gonna be in november but i really have enjoyed this year and i wanna take time to tell my mom who may be reading this that i'm really really grateful to you for sending me here i couldn't have thought of a better solution! :D i actually love australia.. so much so that i'm really not so keen on going back to singapore anymore :P i mean i really wanna see my family and friends but i'd rather them all come here! i KNOW i'm gonna get really annoyed at singapore's regimented system of doing things and just how unfriendly everyone is. it really annoys me! esp after seeing how much better things could be if people just had a smile on their face! :P i know i always talk about God but i really can't help it He's been doing so many great things in my life i can't help but talk about it! :D I recently went to church camp in the country and i had an awesome time!! God spoke to me so clearly about some problems I was facing and two people prophesied (told me something about my future which God revealed to them) over me! The prophecies spoke so much hope into my life cause they talked about how God was gonna grow me without me having to DO anything but trust Hima nd how he was gonna use the least of me to impact and help others, that He will use me so that the birds of the air can come nest in my branches. So much more passion for God and the bible has just been growing in me and I've been learning so so so so much more and at the same time so so so much more humbled by the greatness of God. this past month I've seen His healing in church.. so many people have been healed of muscle problems and other injuries. infact my japanese friend, Natsuki who lives with me in the hostel and who i brought to church was healed of her muscle pull in her archeles tendant after we had prayed for her and now she's a happy and free ballerina our God is so great!
Child of God;
2:12 AM